living situation

[loser_gamer]

My roommates possess the ultimate power to ruin my entire day in just a few sentences. Sometimes they pull it off in one. Miraculous abilities. Tonight I left the safety of my room to grab food and exchanged a few joking words that ended in an uncomfortable atmosphere. I went back to my room and remembered we were supposed to go grocery shopping tonight. I thought it'd be really good for me to calm down. Focus on driving, listen to the radio. So I went back out and had to interrupt them watching a movie to ask if we were going to go. What I would assume is a nice thing to do (reminder of an important task) was met with mockery. I will not be driving tonight. And I am in my room feeling twice the shame I would have if I had not gone back. There's many nights like this where I stay in bed for hours waiting until everyone else is asleep before I leave to go to the bathroom or get food or pet the cat. Sometimes I have food in my room, but right now it's just a couple peppermints left from a Christmas gift. Thankfully I have many Mello Yellos, though. They make me happy. I can't wait for the day I move away and never see them again.

More of a personal post than usual, but I thought shame kind of fit the feeling of my blog. I hope everyone reading this is in a better living situation whether with family, roommates, or alone.